I bolted up the steps to the sterile classroom. Entering, I scanned the room and my new peers.
Hoping for a hiding spot in the back, my heart sank as only front row seats remained.
‘Old Testament Exposition 1’ was a required course for all seminary students. The room was maxed with bright young minds from diverse places.
The familiar whisper, “You are unqualified”, attempted to shake my resolve.
My knees were knocking. My emotions were rocking–but my eyes were fixed on God. I had clearly heard His call and would obey in faith. God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.
As instructed, the seminarians introduced themselves one by one. Most came from exotic countries from around the world. They desired to bring the gospel back to their homelands.
‘How beautiful, ” I thought.
Others told of great sacrifices to study at Moody. They had invested all their money and left their loved ones behind. Some of their lives were in danger for their faith.
‘What amazing testimonies!’
A ‘boys club’ was entrenched in the class, as well. As these academics sparred, their ginormous words were a foreign language. The ‘one upmanship’ was obvious. Their exchanges left me confused.
‘Impressive? Should I know this? Am I the only one who does not understand?’
There I sat— bewildered in the front row.
“Please, God, let the fire alarm sound before they get to me. Please, please, please,” I silently begged.
Soon it was my turn. Heart pounding, I took a deep breath. What could I add to this discussion?
“Hi. I’m Patti. My husband and I live in the suburbs with our 5 kids. I’m a housewife. (Pausing, I turned directly to the professor.) And honestly, I have no idea what those guys just said. I’ve only studied the Bible!”
The nervous words escaped as insecure tears pooled in my eyes.
Momentary silence ensued as my face flushed.
And then our professor burst out in hearty laughter! Smiling, he walked over to my front row seat.
“Patti, those guys over there? They’re the ‘thinking heads’ of the Church. Yes, we need them. But you? You are the ‘beating heart’ of the Church. We need you and many more like you.”
His reassuring words echoed in my mind. Clarity brought purpose to my calling.
If all were a single member, where would the body be? As it is, there are many parts, yet one body. The eye cannot say to the hand, “I have no need of you,” nor again the head to the feet, “I have no need of you.” 1 Corinthians 12:19-21
Church, the thinking heads need the beating hearts. The beating hearts need the thinking heads.
Known by our love for one another.
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